Worst teacher ever!!!!!

First I must address what my definition of a bad teacher is......for me a really bad teacher would be one that doesnt not respect the students and their needs as such, someone who fails to teach the required ciriculum, and one who also is practically there to recieve a pay check.

So with that being said, have I ever had a teacher meet these horrible standards? I think not. Ive never really had a bad teacher, therefore I cannot pick which would be the worst. Yes, I have dealt with teachers that dont necessarily know how to control high school students, but I tried as much as I could to help said teacher and I dont regard them as being a bad teacher. And yes, I have also dealt with teachers that I dont necessarily like their teaching methods. But I think that is part of what high school is about, you're not going to like all of your college proffesors teaching methods; and just like all students are different in the way that they learn things, teachers are also different in the way they provide a learning atmosphere. Dealing with both situations has helped me to grow and adapt to the world around me. I think everyone has a moment in their lives when they truly relize that this world is not going to be EVERYTHING that they want it to be. There will be times that we are going to get dissapointed and hurt, but hey that's part of living.

Friends, family, or goals???

My family and friends have always come before me and the goals Ive set for my life. Well, in reality Ive always found ways to reach my goals and provide for my family and friends in different ways.

Growing up was pretty hard. My parents split when I was little, and I was living with my mom. I really didnt get to see my dad much except for every other weekend, going back to as long as I can remeber. (Well until like 5 years ago when me and my younger sister moved in with my dad full time). But anyways, my older sister practically raised me because my mom was working and stuff, so in turn I practically raised my younger sister. Beyond that when my mom hooked up and married my step-dad things got bad pretty fast. I hated being at our house. Therefore my friends became my family, super fast. I was literally crashing at my best friends' houses so often that I pretty much moved in with them. I was living out of cardboard boxes for a while. My friends became my family. They watched out for me and protected me and I actually felt safe for once when I was with them. So yeah my family (friends included) have always been my number one. I guess I feel like my goals, the ones I set on my own, will eventually work out because I set them around my other priorities. But like Ive said in a previous entry, sometimes I feel like Im putting my goals on the back burner, so to speak. But hey thats just the type of girl I am. Ive always been that way and I doubt that I will change that fact, its part of me that is so unique.

Senioritis

Well, Im truly not feeling the effects of senioritis just yet. Im crossing my fingers that I dont ever get the full effects of it though. Im glad Im a senior this year and I cant wait to be out of high school, but Im going to miss so many people that I doubt I will stay away from the school for too long. Ive met some many awesome people that I hope I will stay friends with for a very long time. Plus the thought of leaving all these fabulous teachers behind, i.e The Wallace Twins, Mrs. Nocera (yes you) and all the other phanominal teachers Ive had over the years is like impossible.
My older brother Daniel had the worst case of senioritis that I have ever seen. He was barely in class and when he was he did like no work. He would show up for like 2 classes a day, sometimes less. I cant even remeber how many cuts he had. He had it made though cause my mom gave him notes all the time, or called out for him. Or maybe that was him signing the notes and making the calls. LOL I dont know. It was a miricle that he actually passed his senior year.
But I always promised myself that I would get through senior year just like all the others. Taking one day at a time, and getting the 4.0 Ive always wanted. Sure there are days that I dont wanna do work and really dont wanna get out of bed, but then I think about all the school I had ahead of me and that I cant quit now. I must do this, not only for myself, but to prove all the people who thought that I couldnt make it wrong, and to make the people who said I could proud.
I dont think senioritis will effect me much this year. At least I still have my fingers crossed that it wont. :) But, hey dont get me wrong, Im sure as hell ditching on senior ditch day. It will be the first day that Ive ditched in my whole school career. Can anyone say Beach?????

Free Topic #10 (Chapter Two)

As Ashlynn and Sierra pulled onto the street where Owen lived, Ashlynn had a funny feeling she was not meant to be there.

"Sierra, somethings wrong. Maybe we should go."

"Nah, girl. Look at how many cars are here. This is gonna be the bash of the year. If we leave, we'll look like losers!" Sierra emphasised!

Ashlynn wasn't one to give into peer pressure, but she had to admit that the party did look like fun. 'Plus' she thought, 'What else am I gonna do all night?'

"Alright," she said," but if anything goes down, we're outta here."

Ashlynn pulled to the end of the street and parked the car. As soon as the car stopped, Sierra was out and on the street. 'Dang she really wants to be here tonight!' Ashlynn thought. Ashlynn shoved the gear into park of her convertable blue Mustang and hopped out. Sierra had already reached the front door and was waiting to enter with Ashlynn, when she realized she had forgotten her bag.

"Go on in, Sierra, I forgot my purse!" she hollered.

"You, sure?"

"Yea, I will be just a sec!" Sierra was already going inside and Ashlynn wasn't about to be in this neighborhood, at night, by herself for to long, so she rushed to her car. She unlocked the door and reached in for her bag. She straightened herself out and closed the door to lock it when she saw him in the reflection. The most beautiful man she had ever seen. He had startled her to the point that she jumped from her shoes.

"Oh my gosh, you scared the crap out of me!" she said as she put her hand to her chest to calm her pounding heart.

"I'm so sorry. I did not mean to frighten you. I just came to ask if this was the party of Owen Sanchez." the mysterious man asked in a foreign accent.

'No wonder I didn't recognize him. He must not be from around here.' she pondered.

"Your not from around here are you?" she decided to ask.

"No, ma'am, I am not. I met Owen and Devin, I believe it was, at the party supply in town and they invited me. But since I do not know my way around these parts, I figured I should ask a gorgeous young lady for directions."

'Wow, he sure sounds fantastic. And he looks amazing.' she thought. 'Ashlynn, get a hold of yourself. You just barely met the guy. Calm down, breathe.'

"Well for not knowing your way around, you're doing great. This is the residence of Owen Sanchez. And, actually, Im attending this gathering as well if you would like to walk with me." she felt stupid for using elegant words, but she WAS trying to impress him.

"Now that is quite a coincidence. I would love to accompany you. May I?" he wrapped her arm through his as she shook her head 'yes'.

They walked to the door when he finally asked her name.

"My name is Ashlynn. And your's?"

"Oh, my appologies. My name is Sam. It a plessure to meet you Ashlynn. What a beautiful name to match such a beautiful woman." he said as he kissed her hand before he opened the door for her. They entered together and danced all night. But little did Ashlynn know, she had just met the man that would bring her demise.

TO BE CONTINUED........

Free Topic #9 (Chapter One)

As she sat twirling her hair, she stared at the vacant screen which was supposed to contain her English paper that was due the following day. 'Why did I decide to come to the library?' she thought aimlessly. She knew that she would not be able to concentrate with so many people hanging around the lounge. But she figured if she stayed at the dorm, she REALLY wouldnt get any work done.

"Ashlynn, hey gurl!"

She turned as she heard her name being hollered from the other end of the room. 'No, Ive been discovered,' she contemplated. Walking toward Ashlynn with determination buring deep within, was Sierra.

"Hey, Sierra. Whats up?" Ashlynn declared with fake enthusiasm. She really need to finish this essay.

"Well I called around and found out that there is going to be a HUGE, and I mean huge, bash tonight at Owen's place. I came to find you so that we can plan what to wear!" The look on Sierra's face said she desperatly wanted to go.

"Well, Sierra Im really sor....."

"Please, dont say it. If you really dont wanna hang with me its fine." Her faced dropped in dismay.

"No, thats not it. Its just I have the English paper to finish for Duff's class. And its due tomorrow and if I dont finish it Im not gonna pass the class and my mom is gonna kill me and Im not gonna get into a good college..." I rambled until Sierra cut in.

"Dude, calm down. Duff posted a bulletin saying that the essay wont be due till next Thursday because he had a family emergency or something. Geez, girl, you NEED a break. Come out with me tonight. Devin will be there." With the last statement Sierra's smile increased until she was grinning ear to ear.

Ashlynn blushed as she tried to pretend that she didnt care. She said nonchalantly, "maybe I can make it after all, since it looks like Im not THAT busy." Deep down, her heart was screaming and she felt she would pop from the butterflies in her stomach. She knew Devin was her soul mate and she would do just about anything to get him to notice her. She had to be at that party! This would be the night that she worked up the courage to finally talk to him.

TO BE CONTINUED..........

Free Topic #8

So I heard this song recently and I think that it is an amazing song. Here are the lyrics:

"I Still Believe"

Some how I know I will find a way

To a brighter day in the sun

Somewhere I know that he waits for me

Someday soon he'll see I'm the one

I won't give up on this feeling

And nothing will keep me away

'Cause I still believe in destiny

That you and I were meant to be

I still wish on the stars as they fall from above

'Cause I still believe

Believe in love

I know what's real cannot be denied

Although it may hide for a while

With just one touch love can conquer fears

Turning all your tears into smiles

It's such a wondrous feeling

I know that my heart can't be wrong

'Cause I still believe in destiny

That you and I were meant to be

I still wish on the stars as they fall from above

'Cause I still believe

Believe in love

Love can make miracles

Change everything

Lift you from the darkness and make your heart sing

Love is forever

When you fall

It's the greatest time of them all

'Cause I still believe in destiny

That you and I were meant to be

I still wish on the stars as they fall from above

'Cause I still believe

Believe in love

Yes I still believe

Believe in love

Still believe in love

I still believe

Believe in love

Today love is thrown around like it means nothing. Nothing at all. Because of this factor, people are slowing forgetting to believe in love. But I think that no matter how the term love is thrown around I think people should still believe in it. Therefore, I choose to believe in love no matter how much it seems unnecessary or unrealistic. Love is awesome.

Free Topic #7

So yesterday was fun!!!! We had my niece's party at the local park and the theme was princess, so both of my nieces were dressed in costumes, as well as a friend's daughter dressed up as Snow White. They were all adorable. I even played football with my brother, which given certain things from our past is amazing. Let's just say that my brother and I didn't see eye to eye on certain things for a long time. But it's all good now which is good. LOL But anyways. I'm sitting here eating ice cream and trying so hard to figure out something philisophical to write about, but I can't seem to think of anything.

Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams. - Ashley Smith

So I found the quote above and figured out something to write about. Beauty and life. Life is beautiful, every aspect of it. It's truly amazing how the rain falls, how it smells and how it makes everything clean and new. It's refreshing. Little children are amazing as well. Their little smiles and their little giggles bring smiles and laughter to the ones around them. I think us, grown ups, forget to believe in the little things. I think we forget to stop and smell the coffee. We just act like we are so very busy with life and all the aspects of life that we forget to stop and examine the beauty all around us. I challenge all to stop today and look at beautiful things.

Free Topic #6

So today we are celebrating one of my niece's birthdays. I'm kind of excited cause I haven't seen her in a little while. We are going to a park to celebrate her 2nd birhday. I can't believe she is two already and my other niece is 3. It's crazy how we grow up so fast. Even when I look at my life and how fast I have grown up, it's kinda scary. I'm going to be 18 this year, in only a few short months. It's freaky cause I look back and remeber the good ol' days, the ones with little fears and a whole lot of wasted tears, and I wonder where the time has gone. Life is flying by, I wanna grasp it and hold on for dear life. I know this probably sounds crazy to some but seriously, things just don't feel the same for me any more. LOL But whatever, thats my little rant about time and ages and birthdays.

Questionable Values?????

Life! A very complicated thing, for lack of a better word. Things have happened in my life, many things for that matter, that have caused me to question what I truly believe and certain values that I have. So here a poem that explains some of them:

That night I chose to stay out all evening,

dancing in the sweet smelling rain,

disregarding the sickness

that would soon cause so much pain.

That night I chose to fly away,

that lonely frost bitten night,

escaping all my fears,

while fists collided in a bloody fight.

That night I chose to puch the cold hard steel

deep into my leg,

screaming for the numbness to cease,

crying cause I neednt beg.

That night he told me I chose to fall in love,

to have his hands caress my skin,

praying for death,

and in that moment hating ALL men.

I chose that sickness,

I chose that flight,

I chose that razor,

and evidently chose to lose that fight.

But today I chose

to stand up tall,

with my head held high,

never again to feel that small.

For the power's been within me,

it's been there all along.

It's allowed me to make choices,

and to sing my own song.

So no more sickness,

and no more fears.

No more blades,

and no more tears.

Today I stand,

cause it's my choice,

to sing and dance,

and share my voice.

So from the poem you can see certain things that I have been through that may have questioned my beliefs. But other things have happened TO me, out of my control that have also made me question certain things. Like the passing of my very best friend, my grandma. But other things too. Like why is there sickness and death anyways? Why are there harmful things present in out lives? But I guess that's all just a part of living. If there weren't some risks, then would it really be living?

Greed

Money!!!! Hahaha nuff said right. Money drives me nuts though! Maybe it's the fact that I never really have any. When I do get money I have to spend it right away, either on gas or other necessities. Therefore, when I hear, or see, people being greedy and hurting people just to get themselves at a higher status, it pisses me off. It's like what the hell, here you are doing pretty freaking well for yourself, and I'm struggling to make ends meet, a long with a lot of other people, and you're gonna be a jerk face and be greedy. Agh!!! Escpecially with the economy the way it is today, we don't need greedy people. The rich only getting richer and the poor only getting poorer. We are a society that is supposed to benefit the whole. So quit being jerkfaces everyone and help some brothers out, or sisters for that matter.

A disapointing gift!

Well I've really never gotten a disappointing gift myself but I have watched my aunt be disappointed by certain gifts that her 'friends' have given her. Apparently these 'friends' are supposed to be her good close friends, well for her birthday, on more then one occasion, they have given her reused gifts. See I could understand doing this is the present was never opened or used, but you see it seems that these people forgot the memo about that small detail. They give her gifts that have been opened and sometimes even used. But that is just a minor detail, another horrible thing that someone can do is give you a gift that was already given to them by you, which has happend too. If you are going to reuse gifts, as least remember who gave you what gift. Common sense people! But it's not this fact that bugs her the most either, it's the fact that this shows her that her so called friends couldnt take the time to think of a thoughtful gift. She has told me on many occasions that she would rather them not give her anything and just say happy birthday. It's messed up to sit there and think that you have the best friends in the world and then they treat you like that. Come on friends, pick up the pace!!!!

Letter of recomendation

So a letter of recommendation for the real me, huh? Well it would go something like this:

To whom it may concern,

Christina Badberg is an amazing women. She always looks out for others, worrying about their well-being over her own. She is always seeking to learn more and more things daily, thriving for a higher education. She is a caring and loving sister and daughter, as well as a compassionate friend. Although she may seem like a very strong person on the outside, do not allow her to fool you. She has a very scared and timid inner being. Christina comes across as a young lady that allows nothing to bother her, but it is a front, she feels pains, hurts, and dissapointments. Because she is a great person she often does not give herself enough time to just be herself and have fun, which is healthy.
Christina is a beautiful young women, but most of all she contains a beautiful spirit, constantly trying to better herself and her surrounds. She will be fantastic at whatever she puts her mind and energy to.
Thank you.
The Real Me.

Cheesy I know but hey, lol