Just another day!

So the new bedding I bought rocks! I swear I did not want to get outta bed this morning. But I did!

Went to Lace's for a study session, in which hardly any studying went on. I dont know what it is but when I get around those girls, I feel like Im no longer invisible, like they really see me for me, like I dont have to hide anymore. They really seem to care about me and when I tell them about things going on in my life, mostly boys right now, and well school, they seem to really understand and give some great advice. I know that Im not ready to jump into something new right away, that I need to figure stuff out within myself. I have been hurt so much, and have gone through so much shit this past year or so, that I just need to take time for me. I love those girls though....they truly are amazing friends.

Anyways!

So this are still pretty much the same....My room is still not done, which is really starting to stress me out and annoy me. But good news is that tomorrow Im hosting another yard sale...hopefully I will get enough money to cover my bed so that I wont be sleeping on the floor. Im crossing my fingers.

A little side note:

Im really worrying about school. I love school. School is the only good thing going for me right now. But lately I have gotten really behind and Im not sure how to completely catch up. Every time I sit down to study and get things caught up, my mind switches to something else. I start thinking about them....wonder what they are doing....how they are. Certain things constantly plague my mind, causing me to lose all focus. I have an outline for my Communications class due next week, plus an essay, plus having to catch up on reading for Psych, Comm, and English. Agh!!! I dont possibly know how Im going to get it all done, but I know that I can. I just have to keep telling myself that I can do this. That I cant fail. Thats what my Dad is waiting for....for me to fail and come crawling back to him. But I wont do it. I will finish what I started. I will make something of myself and prove that I am a strong woman. I will finish school and start a career and make a family and live happily ever after. This will work. I know it will!