So I have been trying to figure out a way to get a bed for my new room...been stressing out like crazy cause I desperately want out of my house...well today I got enough cash to cover a bed and possible a rug, if not a new dresser. So hopefully I'm looking to be out by the end of this week...yay me! That is officially just one less thing I have to stress on. But I still have a full to do list that looks a little like this:
My To Do List:
Finish moving things out of new room.
Host another yard sale.
Do extensive cleaning of new room.
Finish outline for Comm class.
Write essay for English.
Catch up on reading for Psych
Catch up on reading for Comm
Catch up on reading for English
Do work that I missed for English two weeks ago.
Pack up my room.
Move furniture into the new room.
Put new bed together.
Unpack boxes and organize new room.
Help Lacey get her son's room cleaned and organized.
Take Courtney to see Spence and Deb.
Hang out there for a little bit.
Figure out what the hell has happened to Ray.
Clean the house.
Start working out again and perfecting me for me.
Do laundry.
And finally figure out what I'm going to do about a certain someone.....still so freaking confused.
This last one is a long story...but to make it short...I just need to figure out feelings about something and figure out what I wanna do or not do about them.
I talk to Joey tonight for the first time in a while. He is all excited about a new girl and I'm really happy for him. Things never worked out between us but I still want him happy. Any ways so I talked to him and he opened my eyes to something I might not have been seeing...but I'm still nervous. I don't wanna rush into something again and get my heart thrown in a blender again...I'm not sure if I can go through that again. I don't want to give up all hope but a girl's got to be cautious. These walls I have built up have been there for so long and I don't know if I'm ready or able to tear them down all by myself. I don't know whats going to happen with this new situation. I honestly was not looking for something new.....as soon as I stopped looking though this is what happened.....its like Lace Face said so many months back...I cant keep up a bubble...it just doesn't happen....
So I apparently started writing again, (duh I'm writing this) but a few nights ago I also started drawing again. It started to turn into just so tattoo ideas and I love them...I colored them which killed them for tattoo designs but I'm going to complete this whole page of just colored designs then I'm going to go back and make them in just black and white for my tattoos I want to get. Hopefully I either get my first tattoo for my birthday or I get my lip pierced...I'm kinda hoping for the lip just because I want it really really bad...but if I get both then sweet....hahah.....I don't....but I'm going to head back to myspace and facebook for now....play a few games cause I'm still not sleeping...then hopefully tire myself into a stupor hahah...Night y'all!
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